What to Actually Do When Starting From Zero
- Isaac Lester
- 3 days ago
- 12 min read
The First 30 Days
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"The storm has passed. The hands still tremble, the blood hasn’t cooled, and the echoes of screams still linger and hang in the air as tears still wet your shirt... but there is a silence for a heartbeat, a kind of peace, even, in the moments after violence.
But it's not peace at all. It's not relief, not victory, even sadness and loss haven't yet to catch up. This is the hush of a world waiting to see what becomes of you next."
When you are called to alter the core of yourself in hopes of enacting radical change, that new life must begin with the murder of what came before.
You just killed your old life. Good.
Now what?
Join me in skipping over the philosophical version of "starting over" where you buy a journal and set intentions. I mean to speak on the moment right after you've actually burned it all down.
The apartment you just left. The family you cut off. The career you walked away from. The version of yourself you finally had the balls to murder because staying in that skin was killing you slower.
The smoke is clearing. The wreckage is behind you. And you're standing in that strange silence wondering what the fuck happens next.
Starting from zero isn't about having nothing. When you reach out and grasp that specific moment when everything familiar is gone, the old rules don't apply anymore, and everyone who used to give you answers is either gone or wrong...
Starting from zero becomes relative.
Your zero might be living on someone's couch with eight hundred dollars and a backpack. It might be sitting in your car outside your ex's house at three in the morning. Maybe you're staring at a boat you just bought with no plan, or you're in a basement apartment watching your life savings evaporate while your family pretends you don't exist.
The details are different but the common thread coordinates are the same: You're alone with yourself for the first time in years, maybe ever, and you need to figure out how to build a life from the ashes up to the stars.
Motivation speeches are coming soon, in a different format. This, however, is right now, and is a field manual for the thirty days that determine whether you rise to heights above the curvature of the Earth or collapse back down into the formless void beneath Hell.
I. The Mission
In thirty days, you're going to establish four things. Mental sovereignty, where your mind becomes your fortress instead of your prison. Survival protocols that keep you alive while rebuilding. Forward momentum that proves you're building instead of just surviving.
And the new normal, a life that doesn't look anything like the old one.
You're not lost, so I'm not going to attempt to show you how to find yourself. You're building yourself from scratch, and that's a different operation entirely. Here, I have a particular set of skills...
Week One: Reconnaissance
The first week is the stillness after the violence. While your hands are still bloodied from the act and before the body can grow cold, your brain is going to tell you this was a mistake, that you should go back, apologize, and mend the wounds, that you're not strong enough for this, that everyone else figured it out so what's wrong with you?
These thoughts are no more than exit wounds from your old life. See the thoughts and feelings that weep from the wound. Acknowledge them as what was but can no longer be, then keep moving. You will patch them with progress.
"Through hardships..."
Next, get a notebook.
Not your phone, a physical notebook.
This becomes your war room log, and the first thing you're writing in it is an asset audit. You need to know exactly what you're working with, and I mean exactly. Write down the money you have, the real number with no rounding.
Write down every skill you can monetize immediately, whether that's bartending or coding or writing or manual labor. Anything.
Document the gear you own. Your laptop, your car, your phone, any tools. List the people who don't need to be cast from your life, the two or three humans who actually showed up when everyone else disappeared.
And document the space you occupy, where you're sleeping and how long that situation is viable.
This is the first step in some peoples inspirational work, but for us, this is active inventory.
I lean back on what I know: I'm a Marine counting ammunition and supplies before the firefight, and I need accurate intelligence or I'll make decisions based on fantasy instead of reality.
Don't plan around having a vehicle to use if you know any day now that vehicle could be snatched up by a towing company. Don't plan on staying where you are if you know the landlord wants your head for missed rent payments. Don't plan in fantasy, and you won't get brutalized and gored by reality.
Next comes The Bridge Assessment, and this is where most people slag it up hardest because they try to be diplomatic.
There are two categories and only two categories:
Severed limbs.
Distant orbit.
Severed limbs are cut completely. Anyone who betrayed you. Anyone who makes you feel small. Anyone whose help comes with strings attached. Anyone who wants the old you back. Write their names in your notebook. You will not contact them again, not because you're angry but because they don't fit where you're going.
Don't look back, yo'. You're not going that way.
Distant orbit is for people who mean well but don't understand, family who can't hurt you if you don't need them, friends from the old life who get one last chance. The rule is simple. If engaging with them costs you energy you need for rebuilding, they're a luxury you can't afford, maybe yet, maybe ever.
By the end of week one, you need a decision protocol because you're going to face a thousand small decisions in the next thirty days. Most don't matter. Some will define your next decade. The framework is three questions.
Does this decision move me toward or away from freedom?
Am I making this choice from fear or from strategy?
Would future me thank me or curse me for this?
Write these questions in your notebook and use them daily.
Your week one metric is straightforward. By day seven, you should have one notebook filled with raw intelligence, zero contact with severed limbs, and a clear picture of your starting coordinates. If you don't have this, you're not ready for week two.
Do the work again.
Week Two: Stabilization
Week two is when your brain realizes you're serious and escalates. You'll get panic attacks at three in the morning. Memories of better times will surface, except they weren't better, you just forgot the parts that made you leave.
The guilt about the people you left will hit hard. You'll have fantasies about going back. This is the old self's death rattle. Let it die. The pain means it's working.
And when the past finds a way to creep back up on you unsuspecting, it will attempt to seduce you into coming back to a familiar and warm home. Do the right thing and send it back in the direction it came.
Reject the bullshit. Build for your dreams.
The first priority is stopping whatever's actively destroying you right now. Maybe you're drinking to cope. Maybe you're doom scrolling until four in the morning. Maybe you're eating garbage because cooking feels like too much effort.
Pick one thing, just one, the biggest bleeder, and stop it today. You don't need to fix everything. You need to stop dying long enough to rebuild.
Then comes the money map, and this is critical because you need monies for the mission not next month but now.
Your seventy-two hour income options are selling shit you don't need on Facebook Marketplace, doing service work you can deliver immediately like mowing lawns or moving furniture, picking up online micro-tasks on Upwork or Fiverr, anything you can complete in twenty-four hours, or calling in one-time favors from your distant orbit people.
The goal is one hundred to five hundred dollars in the next seventy-two hours. This isn't your career. This is proof that you can generate money from nothing, and that proof is ammunition for future conflicts in your life.
"This article is a result of my first ever blog article. My future empire will be a result of this article. I did it in the past, I can do it even more betterer in the future." This is the mindset.
If you're still in hostile territory, and by that I mean a non-hospitable family home or a toxic city or any place that reminds you of the old life, you're planning in enemy territory.
The rules for operating in enemy territory are (like fight club, we don't talk about fight club) don't announce your plans, don't defend your decisions, don't engage in debates about your future, and document everything in your notebook instead of anywhere else.
Your rebuilding happens in silence until it's too late for anyone to stop it. Critical mass is critical because it's unhinged and uncontrollable. Ungovernable. Be like that.
By day fourteen, you should have stopped one major self-destructive pattern, generated income from nothing even if it's a small amount, and established operational security around your plans. If you achieved two out of three, you pass. If you failed all three, week three starts with an after-action review.
You will not quit. You will review, you will analyze, you will iterate.
You will then run a new Operation.
Week Three: Foundation
Around day fifteen, you'll feel better. Like maybe you've figured it out. You haven't. This is the most dangerous moment because the old life will act in the open and send a legitimate missionary this time around. An ex will wet their shirt with tears while apologizing. Family will suddenly humble themselves with understanding. A job offer will materialize that looks safe and promising. An old friend will reach out wanting to catch up.
These are traps.
Not because they're malicious, but because they lead backward.
You will not look behind you. You will pay attention to your direction of travel.
What you need now is the New Normal Framework.
Your minimum viable routine is what your life actually looks like going forward. What time you wake up, and it needs to be the same time every day. Your morning protocol, whether that's exercise or shower or coffee or whatever makes you human.
Your first work block for income generation, two to three hours. A midday reset where you walk or eat or get away from screens. Your second work block for skill building and planning, one to two hours. An evening shutdown with no screens after a specific time.
And again, guard your sleep window ruthlessly. Shut down the machine, turn off the engine, and get head to pillow contact around the same time every night.
This is the minimum you do even on your worst days. Write it down and follow it tomorrow. Stick with it for a month, then message me with your results. I promise, you'll be amazed.
Every morning before doing anything else, you're going to complete a daily campaign brief. Five minutes.
Situation, where am I right now in terms of mental state, resources, and progress?
Mission, what am I accomplishing today with one to three concrete objectives
Execution, the specific actions I'm taking, in order
Admin & Service Support, what resources or support I need and what obstacles I need to clear
And Command Signal, how I'll know I won today with specific evidence. Five minutes every morning in your notebook.
This is how you think like a commander instead of a victim.
Your brain still doesn't believe this is working, so you need to create concrete progress proof.
Screenshot your first online dollar. Take a photo of your clean living space. Write down three things you did this week that the old you couldn't do. Save one message from someone who noticed you're different. Again, this is ammunition against the voice that says you should quit.
A motivational moment will not sustain you. Proof that you ARE the person who is doing the things that will take you to where you want to be is highly potent and powerful stuff, yo', take it seriously.
By day twenty-one, you should have a minimum viable routine you've followed for three or more days, documented daily campaign briefs, and tangible proof of progress. Eighty percent achievement is passing. Review what broke and adjust week four accordingly.
You can do this so long as you keep telling yourself that it's possible.
Week Four: Momentum
By week four, you've been alone with yourself for three weeks and the loneliness gets loud. Your brain will whisper that nobody cares about this, that you're doing this for nothing, that everyone else has people. The counter is simple. You're not alone, you're selective.
There's a difference. Understand the power of perspective and the world will shift before your lying eyes.
Isolation is only destructive if you're hiding, but you're not hiding, you're building.
Use the solitude to learn the skill you've been too busy for.
Read the books that change how you think.
Plan a campaign and map the next ninety days in gory detail.
Create something nobody asked for. The people you're lonely for will either find you when and where you've rebuilt, or you'll find better people playing the same game as you.
Never forget that there are still over 8 billion people on this good Earth.
You've been in the shit for almost a month. Time to prove you're winning by completing one thing from start to finish. A small project. A micro-milestone like a hundred dollars saved or ten articles read or thirty days clean. Something you built from scratch. Then document it and share it somewhere, not for validation but for documentation.
Your rebuilding needs witnesses, not cheerleaders.
Days twenty-eight through thirty are for the after-action review. In your notebook, answer what worked in terms of routines and income generation and mental tactics. Answer what failed, meaning what you avoided that you needed to face, which old patterns returned, and where you wasted time or energy or money. Then answer what changes, meaning what you need to stop doing, what you need to start doing, and what adjustments you're making for days thirty-one through sixty. This isn't judgment. This is intelligence gathering.
By day thirty, you should have maintained your routines with eighty percent or better consistency, completed one start-to-finish project, and written a plan for the next thirty days. If you hit two out of three, you've built enough momentum to continue.
II. How to Know You're Winning
You're winning if you can look at day one and barely recognize that person. If money is moving in or out based on your decisions instead of circumstances.
If you've maintained your minimum routine for twenty-one days or more. If you have documented evidence of forward progress. If the thought of going back makes you physically ill. If you've said no to at least one thing everyone else would say yes to.
You're losing if you're hiding from yourself with substances or screens or sleep. If every decision is still reactive, responding to crisis instead of building. If you've broken the same promise to yourself three or more times. If your notebook is empty after week one. If you're still waiting for permission to start.
C'mon man, whuddya do that for?
III. The Truth About the First Thirty Days
"... Ad Astra"
This isn't when your life gets good. This is when you stop dying.
The first thirty days are violent. You're fighting for and with your mind while battling against and through your circumstances. Your old patterns and everyone who wants you to come back claw at the city gates like barbarian hordes spawned from that hell you've already escaped yourself...
But by day thirty, you have something nobody can take from you. Proof that you can survive yourself.
I spent literal years couch surfing in basements, broke and betrayed, before I figured this out. I went from living under my mother to captaining my own sailboat not because I'm special, but because I refused to stay in the pit long enough for it to become permanent.
You don't need money. You don't need permission. You don't need anyone to believe in you. You need thirty days of waking up and refusing to quit, literally everything else will follow from that.
The boat, the business, the life you actually want, that comes later. First, you have to prove you can build when there's nothing but wreckage.
The thirty days start when you say they do. Not Monday. Not next month. Not when things calm down. Today. Open the notebook. Write day one at the top. Then start counting.
I'm writing this from a sailboat I bought with four thousand dollars after leaving everyone I knew behind in the world. My first thirty days as a Ronin almost killed me. I questioned everything. I nearly gave up. I had moments where I wanted to crawl back to people who I knew didn't deserve me.
But I kept the notebook. I did the campaign briefs. I tracked the small wins when it felt like I was drowning.
By day thirty, I didn't have it figured out. But I had momentum. That momentum carried me from zero to here. A boat, a business being built, and a life nobody can take from me while my blood runs hot and my focus is dialed in properly.
If I can do it from a basement in Chicago, you can do it from wherever you are.
The first thirty days aren't about winning. They're about refusing to lose long enough to start building.
Now stop reading and start writing day one in your notebook.
The clock is running.
Per Aspera Ad Astra
Through Hardships to The Gorydamn Stars
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This is Week 4 of a 12-week series documenting my journey from the void beneath hell to ground zero just above the pit, and the frameworks that got me here. Next week: "Practical Systems for Empire Builders"
If you’re reading this at 2 a.m. wondering if starting over is still on the table...it is. I’m living proof. Don’t spend another day drifting alone in darkness; start building toward the light. If you need a guide, check out my publishing hub. I believe in you, frfr, yo'.
- Isaac
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